<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><?xml-stylesheet href="https://feeds.captivate.fm/style.xsl" type="text/xsl"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0" xmlns:googleplay="http://www.google.com/schemas/play-podcasts/1.0" xmlns:itunes="http://www.itunes.com/dtds/podcast-1.0.dtd" xmlns:sy="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/syndication/" xmlns:podcast="https://podcastindex.org/namespace/1.0"><channel><atom:link href="https://feeds.captivate.fm/ashes-and-aftermath/" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><title><![CDATA[Ashes and Aftermath]]></title><podcast:guid>5c94ac2d-a9db-5570-9fc8-701fd139b3d9</podcast:guid><lastBuildDate>Fri, 27 Feb 2026 21:21:24 +0000</lastBuildDate><generator>Captivate.fm</generator><language><![CDATA[en]]></language><copyright><![CDATA[Copyright 2026 Brandon Holder]]></copyright><managingEditor>Brandon Holder</managingEditor><itunes:summary><![CDATA[“Life doesn’t always break softly. Sometimes it shatters — and in the silence after, we’re left standing in the ashes, wondering how to begin again.”

Ashes and Aftermath is a podcast about trauma, healing, and the messy, beautiful work of rebuilding after life-altering experiences. Hosted by Brandon Holder, each episode opens a safe, honest space to explore what it really means to survive and to grow.

Here, you’ll hear:
Real stories from survivors who found hope in the aftermath
Conversations with experts in trauma recovery, therapy, and resilience
Personal reflections on the ups, downs, and truths of healing
Practical tools for navigating triggers, setbacks, and breakthroughs

This isn’t about toxic positivity or quick fixes. It’s about truth, compassion, and the belief that even in the ashes, there is always the possibility of light.

If you’ve ever felt broken, lost, or alone in your healing journey — you are not alone. Join us for Ashes and Aftermath and discover that from the fire, new life can rise.]]></itunes:summary><image><url>https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg</url><title>Ashes and Aftermath</title><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm]]></link></image><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><itunes:owner><itunes:name>Brandon Holder</itunes:name></itunes:owner><itunes:author>Brandon Holder</itunes:author><description>“Life doesn’t always break softly. Sometimes it shatters — and in the silence after, we’re left standing in the ashes, wondering how to begin again.”

Ashes and Aftermath is a podcast about trauma, healing, and the messy, beautiful work of rebuilding after life-altering experiences. Hosted by Brandon Holder, each episode opens a safe, honest space to explore what it really means to survive and to grow.

Here, you’ll hear:
Real stories from survivors who found hope in the aftermath
Conversations with experts in trauma recovery, therapy, and resilience
Personal reflections on the ups, downs, and truths of healing
Practical tools for navigating triggers, setbacks, and breakthroughs

This isn’t about toxic positivity or quick fixes. It’s about truth, compassion, and the belief that even in the ashes, there is always the possibility of light.

If you’ve ever felt broken, lost, or alone in your healing journey — you are not alone. Join us for Ashes and Aftermath and discover that from the fire, new life can rise.</description><link>https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm</link><atom:link href="https://pubsubhubbub.appspot.com" rel="hub"/><itunes:subtitle><![CDATA[Stories of healing and rebuilding]]></itunes:subtitle><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:type>episodic</itunes:type><itunes:category text="Society &amp; Culture"></itunes:category><itunes:category text="Health &amp; Fitness"><itunes:category text="Mental Health"/></itunes:category><itunes:category text="Education"></itunes:category><podcast:locked>no</podcast:locked><podcast:medium>podcast</podcast:medium><item><title>Long COVID, Depression &amp; Reinvention: Noah May’s Unfiltered Story</title><itunes:title>Long COVID, Depression &amp; Reinvention: Noah May’s Unfiltered Story</itunes:title><description><![CDATA[<p>In this powerful and honest conversation, Noah May shares his journey from community college in Alabama to graduating from Auburn University with a journalism degree — and the unexpected road that led him into full-time podcasting.</p><p>After struggling to break into traditional journalism, Noah found himself pivoting into podcasting, where a single email from Pod Match helped change the trajectory of his career. He opens up about building a show from the ground up, developing his interviewing style, and using his journalism background to elevate his production and storytelling.</p><p>But this episode goes much deeper.</p><p>Noah speaks candidly about living with depression that began in his early teens, growing up without a present father, and watching his grandmother battle dementia and Alzheimer’s. He also shares the mental and physical impact of long COVID — including how being diagnosed through a blood test reshaped his understanding of anxiety and health.</p>]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In this powerful and honest conversation, Noah May shares his journey from community college in Alabama to graduating from Auburn University with a journalism degree — and the unexpected road that led him into full-time podcasting.</p><p>After struggling to break into traditional journalism, Noah found himself pivoting into podcasting, where a single email from Pod Match helped change the trajectory of his career. He opens up about building a show from the ground up, developing his interviewing style, and using his journalism background to elevate his production and storytelling.</p><p>But this episode goes much deeper.</p><p>Noah speaks candidly about living with depression that began in his early teens, growing up without a present father, and watching his grandmother battle dementia and Alzheimer’s. He also shares the mental and physical impact of long COVID — including how being diagnosed through a blood test reshaped his understanding of anxiety and health.</p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/long-covid-depression-reinvention-noah-mays-unfiltered-story]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">cedb516c-8ba7-433d-b8c3-70918c91c5c6</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Wed, 25 Feb 2026 16:30:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/cedb516c-8ba7-433d-b8c3-70918c91c5c6.mp3" length="32136272" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>01:06:57</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType><itunes:episode>5</itunes:episode><podcast:episode>5</podcast:episode></item><item><title>From Setbacks to Sightlines: How Steve Gamlin Rebuilt His Life with Vision</title><itunes:title>From Setbacks to Sightlines: How Steve Gamlin Rebuilt His Life with Vision</itunes:title><description><![CDATA[<p>In this episode, I’m joined by <strong>Steve Gamlin</strong>, motivational speaker, humorist, and the creator of <strong>Vision Board Mastery</strong>, for a real and refreshing conversation about rebuilding your life after setbacks.</p><p>Steve shares his personal journey through failure, self-doubt, and starting over—and how learning to <em>see his life differently</em> changed everything. We talk about why vision boards get a bad reputation, how they actually work when used the right way, and why clarity matters more than motivation.</p><p>This episode also dives into the power of humor, gratitude, and small daily actions that create real momentum. Steve brings honesty, heart, and plenty of laughs while reminding us that you don’t need a perfect past to create a meaningful future.</p><p>If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure of your next step, this conversation will help you reset your perspective and move forward with intention.</p><p><strong>You’ll hear about:</strong></p><ol><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Vision boards that actually work</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Turning failure into clarity</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Using humor to heal and grow</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Simple ways to regain momentum</li></ol><br/><p>This is a feel-good, practical episode for anyone ready to stop surviving and start designing their life.</p>]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>In this episode, I’m joined by <strong>Steve Gamlin</strong>, motivational speaker, humorist, and the creator of <strong>Vision Board Mastery</strong>, for a real and refreshing conversation about rebuilding your life after setbacks.</p><p>Steve shares his personal journey through failure, self-doubt, and starting over—and how learning to <em>see his life differently</em> changed everything. We talk about why vision boards get a bad reputation, how they actually work when used the right way, and why clarity matters more than motivation.</p><p>This episode also dives into the power of humor, gratitude, and small daily actions that create real momentum. Steve brings honesty, heart, and plenty of laughs while reminding us that you don’t need a perfect past to create a meaningful future.</p><p>If you’ve ever felt stuck, overwhelmed, or unsure of your next step, this conversation will help you reset your perspective and move forward with intention.</p><p><strong>You’ll hear about:</strong></p><ol><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Vision boards that actually work</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Turning failure into clarity</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Using humor to heal and grow</li><li data-list="bullet"><span class="ql-ui" contenteditable="false"></span>Simple ways to regain momentum</li></ol><br/><p>This is a feel-good, practical episode for anyone ready to stop surviving and start designing their life.</p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/from-setbacks-to-sightlines-how-steve-gamlin-rebuilt-his-life-with-vision]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">4387646d-1b1c-4cab-8c2e-8bbda4aa402a</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Mon, 12 Jan 2026 15:15:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/4387646d-1b1c-4cab-8c2e-8bbda4aa402a.mp3" length="23308974" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>48:34</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType><itunes:episode>4</itunes:episode><podcast:episode>4</podcast:episode></item><item><title>The Crash That Created a Crusader</title><itunes:title>The Crash That Created a Crusader</itunes:title><description><![CDATA[<p>n this episode of <em>Ashes and Aftermath</em>, Brandon Holder speaks with <strong>Nicholas Ruchlewicz</strong>, a traumatic brain injury and motorcycle crash survivor who turned personal devastation into powerful advocacy. Nicholas shares the story of the accident that left him with multiple life-threatening injuries, the long road to recovery, and the mental health lessons trauma forced him to confront.</p><p>The conversation explores the realities many survivors face but rarely discuss — navigating insurance battles, accessing mental health care, and standing up within a system that often fails trauma victims. Nicholas also reflects on how music, community, and vulnerability played a crucial role in his healing, and why he now uses his voice to advocate for better trauma care and mental health support.</p><p>A raw, honest episode about survival, resilience, and rising after impact.</p>]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>n this episode of <em>Ashes and Aftermath</em>, Brandon Holder speaks with <strong>Nicholas Ruchlewicz</strong>, a traumatic brain injury and motorcycle crash survivor who turned personal devastation into powerful advocacy. Nicholas shares the story of the accident that left him with multiple life-threatening injuries, the long road to recovery, and the mental health lessons trauma forced him to confront.</p><p>The conversation explores the realities many survivors face but rarely discuss — navigating insurance battles, accessing mental health care, and standing up within a system that often fails trauma victims. Nicholas also reflects on how music, community, and vulnerability played a crucial role in his healing, and why he now uses his voice to advocate for better trauma care and mental health support.</p><p>A raw, honest episode about survival, resilience, and rising after impact.</p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/the-crash-that-created-a-crusader]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">eb3f1a00-bdea-454f-8340-4a9ece51bc33</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Wed, 07 Jan 2026 05:00:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/eb3f1a00-bdea-454f-8340-4a9ece51bc33.mp3" length="26986806" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>56:13</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType><itunes:episode>3</itunes:episode><podcast:episode>3</podcast:episode></item><item><title>Forgive, Heal, Rise! 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Shannon shares how childhood trauma impacts us as adults and how healing begins through forgiveness, inner-child work, and reclaiming your voice.</p><p>They explore overcoming shame tied to addiction and sexual abuse, the power of sharing your story, and how pain can be transformed into purpose. This honest, heart-centered conversation offers practical tools and hope for anyone on a healing journey.</p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/forgive-heal-rise]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">7eba4342-55af-46b5-8524-6987c7669a4c</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/f07f3c1a-1b46-4e0a-a76f-1be2c78e05bf/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Sun, 14 Dec 2025 21:15:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/7eba4342-55af-46b5-8524-6987c7669a4c.mp3" length="22959769" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>47:50</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType><itunes:episode>2</itunes:episode><podcast:episode>2</podcast:episode></item><item><title>Turning Hurt Into Hope with Julie Barth</title><itunes:title>Turning Hurt Into Hope with Julie Barth</itunes:title><description><![CDATA[<p><strong>When life shatters, where do you turn? In this episode, Julie Barth shares how she survived profound loss, emotional abuse, and the demands of raising a medically fragile daughter — and how she rebuilt her life with purpose. This conversation is a lifeline for anyone navigating grief, trauma, or the aftermath of a toxic relationship.</strong></p><p>Julie’s journey began with the heartbreaking loss of her first husband, Colin, to pancreatic cancer while she was caring for their special-needs daughter. What followed was a long stretch of exhaustion, guilt, and survival mode that left her vulnerable to a relationship filled with emotional manipulation and control. Julie opens up about the red flags she ignored, the isolation she felt, and the physical toll trauma took on her body.</p><p>In one of the most honest conversations we’ve had on <em>Ashes &amp; Aftermath</em>, Julie explains how unresolved grief can pull strong women into abusive dynamics, why so many victims blame themselves, and what finally helped her leave for good. She also shares how these experiences led her to create <strong>CJB Outreach</strong>, a nonprofit dedicated to helping women in crisis who fall through the cracks of traditional support systems.</p><p><strong>In this episode, Julie and Brandon discuss:</strong></p><ul><li>The hidden weight of caregiving and widowhood</li><li>Why intelligent, strong women miss red flags</li><li>How emotional abuse rewires your thinking</li><li>The physical symptoms that come from living in chaos</li><li>The guilt, self-blame, and silence that keep people trapped</li><li>What healing looked like when she finally broke free</li><li>How CJB Outreach supports women before they hit rock bottom</li></ul><br/><p>Julie’s story is a powerful reminder that you are not broken, you are not alone, and you can rebuild a life that feels safe, grounded, and hopeful — no matter what you’ve been through.</p><p>If this episode resonates with you, please share it with someone who may need it. Your reviews and ratings help this show reach more people who need these conversations.</p><p><strong>Connect with Julie:</strong></p><p>(Add website/social links here)</p><p><strong>Connect with Brandon &amp; Ashes &amp; Aftermath:</strong></p><p>(Add your links here)</p>]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>When life shatters, where do you turn? In this episode, Julie Barth shares how she survived profound loss, emotional abuse, and the demands of raising a medically fragile daughter — and how she rebuilt her life with purpose. This conversation is a lifeline for anyone navigating grief, trauma, or the aftermath of a toxic relationship.</strong></p><p>Julie’s journey began with the heartbreaking loss of her first husband, Colin, to pancreatic cancer while she was caring for their special-needs daughter. What followed was a long stretch of exhaustion, guilt, and survival mode that left her vulnerable to a relationship filled with emotional manipulation and control. Julie opens up about the red flags she ignored, the isolation she felt, and the physical toll trauma took on her body.</p><p>In one of the most honest conversations we’ve had on <em>Ashes &amp; Aftermath</em>, Julie explains how unresolved grief can pull strong women into abusive dynamics, why so many victims blame themselves, and what finally helped her leave for good. 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Your reviews and ratings help this show reach more people who need these conversations.</p><p><strong>Connect with Julie:</strong></p><p>(Add website/social links here)</p><p><strong>Connect with Brandon &amp; Ashes &amp; Aftermath:</strong></p><p>(Add your links here)</p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/turning-hurt-into-hope-with-julie-barth]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">efab3e35-ef40-4a7a-8c82-a4b9c5e31489</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Mon, 01 Dec 2025 09:00:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/efab3e35-ef40-4a7a-8c82-a4b9c5e31489.mp3" length="45910953" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>01:35:39</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>full</itunes:episodeType><itunes:episode>1</itunes:episode><podcast:episode>1</podcast:episode></item><item><title>Ashes and Aftermath : Let Your Phoenix Rise</title><itunes:title>Ashes and Aftermath : Let Your Phoenix Rise</itunes:title><description><![CDATA[<p><strong>Life doesn’t always break softly. Sometimes it shatters.</strong> <em>Ashes &amp; Aftermath</em> is a mental health and recovery podcast about surviving trauma, navigating healing, and the messy human work of rebuilding. Hosted by survivor Brandon Holder, the show shares real stories, expert insights, and practical tools for anyone on a healing journey. Some episodes feature Brandon’s personal reflections; others bring on survivors, therapists, and healers who know what it takes to rise again.</p><p><strong>No sugarcoating. No toxic positivity.</strong> Just authentic conversations, resilience, and the belief that even in the ashes, new beginnings can spark. If you’ve ever wondered how to rebuild your life after trauma, you’re not alone.</p><p><strong>Subscribe to <em>Ashes &amp; Aftermath</em> today and discover hope, healing, and the light after the fire.﻿</strong></p>]]></description><content:encoded><![CDATA[<p><strong>Life doesn’t always break softly. 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If you’ve ever wondered how to rebuild your life after trauma, you’re not alone.</p><p><strong>Subscribe to <em>Ashes &amp; Aftermath</em> today and discover hope, healing, and the light after the fire.﻿</strong></p>]]></content:encoded><link><![CDATA[https://ashes-and-aftermath.captivate.fm/episode/ashes-and-aftermath-let-your-phoenix-rise]]></link><guid isPermaLink="false">095ab444-ab9a-4018-8b20-fa3bc5348ace</guid><itunes:image href="https://artwork.captivate.fm/982f39d5-0207-4d06-8dd0-aafd1fdbbd2d/AAA-Cover.jpg"/><pubDate>Tue, 02 Sep 2025 00:33:00 -0500</pubDate><enclosure url="https://episodes.captivate.fm/episode/095ab444-ab9a-4018-8b20-fa3bc5348ace.mp3" length="796857" type="audio/mpeg"/><itunes:duration>01:40</itunes:duration><itunes:explicit>true</itunes:explicit><itunes:episodeType>trailer</itunes:episodeType></item></channel></rss>