Closed for Maintenance

let them.

Sun, 31 May 2026 00:00:00 -0400

We made it to the Season 3 finale, and I'm ending it the only way I know how. Honestly.

In this episode, we're talking about the truth about what it means to have a village. Co-parenting challenges, a son who has been testing every last nerve, and an unexpected shift with someone I didn't see coming that changed everything.

This episode is about what happened when I finally stopped carrying things alone. The texts I sent. The phone calls where I was already crying before anyone answered. The people who showed up when I let them in, and what I think God was waiting for me to do all along.

If you've been doing it alone when you didn't have to, this one is for you. If you have people around you that you haven't let in yet, this one is for you. If what you've been calling strength is really just walls...listen up.

Topics covered: co-parenting, asking for help, vulnerability, letting people in, faith and surrender, building community, and what it actually means to let them village.

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be still and know.

Sun, 17 May 2026 00:00:00 -0400

Some episodes are planned. This one wasn't.

I sat down to record something else today and something in me wouldn't move toward it. Not because I was tired or distracted. Because it wasn't true. And I've learned that forcing what isn't ready is its own kind of pretending.

So I got quiet. And this is what came out of that quiet.

In this episode I'm getting honest about where I actually am with this podcast, with creating, with the pressure to keep producing...and why I'm learning that stillness isn't the absence of faith. It might actually be the fullest expression of it.

We talk about the temptation to strive, why striving is so attractive (and so costly), and what it means to anchor your confidence not in what you produce but in what you know. Because be still and know aren't just two words, they're two separate invitations. And you can't really do one without the other.

If you've been pushing through when something in you keeps saying stop this episode is for you.

Scriptures referenced: Psalm 46:10 · Matthew 6:26 · Matthew 26:41 · Isaiah 30:15 · 1 Peter 5:7 · Philippians 4:19 · Galatians 5:25

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the long way home.

Sun, 12 Apr 2026 00:00:00 -0400

Some paths don't look like progress...until you're far enough along to see what they were building.

In this episode, I'm sharing my full origin story for the first time in full context. From dropping out of college and figuring out my next move from my mom's couch, to my dad handing me a one-way train ticket to New York City to chase a dream I couldn't fully name yet. I built a life there... a brand, an identity, a version of success that made sense on the outside. But something was shifting on the inside.

Then I lost my job. No warning, no explanation. And the very next morning, I walked into a bookstore and found the only autographed copy of a book on prayer, and that moment changed everything.

This episode is about what happened after. The surrender. The rebuilding. The full circle moment of being back at my mom's house...but this time with clarity, peace, and purpose instead of confusion. What once felt like being stuck now feels like covering, support, and alignment for me and my son Tyler.

Nothing was wasted. The detours, the delays, the seasons that felt like setbacks — they were all part of it. And if you're in the middle of something that doesn't make sense yet, this one's for you.

You're not behind. You just might be in the middle of your own long way home. And eventually you'll realize...you were never lost. You were being led.

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broken beyond repair?

Sun, 08 Mar 2026 00:00:00 -0400

Have you ever made a mistake and immediately felt the urge to fix it, hide it, or carry the weight of it on your own?

In this episode of Closed for Maintenance, Natasha reflects on a small moment that turned into a powerful reminder about grace, surrender, and the way we often try to repair things in our lives without bringing them to God first.

Sometimes the very things we worry have ruined everything are the same things God is inviting us to place back in His hands.

If you’ve ever felt like you’ve made a mess of something, or like there are parts of your life that need repair, this conversation is a gentle reminder that nothing is beyond restoration in God’s hands.

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breathe again.

Sun, 22 Feb 2026 00:00:00 -0400

In this deeply personal episode, Natasha reflects on what it means to learn how to live again after years of survival mode.

Growing up, she watched her parents work hard to provide but rarely slow down to enjoy life…a pattern she later realized she had quietly repeated in her own adulthood. At 37, a quiet realization changed everything: if she didn’t learn how to live now, she might spend her entire life just getting through it.

This episode is an honest conversation about breaking generational survival patterns, rediscovering joy that isn’t tied to circumstances, and learning how to stop postponing your life for a future that may never feel “ready.”

Natasha shares the practical ways she’s learning to live again in real time…from choosing joy rooted in God, to creating space for everyday living instead of periodic escape, to making intentional choices even when money, timing, or life feels uncertain.

If you’ve been holding your breath waiting for things to settle before you allow yourself to live… this episode is your permission to exhale.

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get back up...again.

Sun, 08 Feb 2026 00:00:00 -0400

Sometimes the hardest part isn’t falling down...it’s believing you’re allowed to get back up.

In the Season 3 premiere, I’m talking honestly about what it looks like to lose momentum, feel out of alignment, and wrestle with the tension between faith, creativity, and obedience. There was a season where I was still consuming God’s Word, but not fully living it out, and the result was confusion, noise, and a lack of clarity in my creative life.

This conversation is about recognizing where compromise sneaks in, how distraction can dilute direction, and what happens when you choose obedience even when it’s uncomfortable. On the other side of that decision, I found clarity again, not just creatively, but spiritually.

If you’ve been feeling stuck, discouraged, or unsure how to move forward after a setback, this episode is a reminder that falling isn’t the end of the story. You’re allowed to pause. You’re allowed to realign. And you’re allowed to get back up again.

Closed for Maintenance is a space for honest conversations about faith, rebuilding, and learning how to live with intention...one episode at a time.

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open hands. slow steps. honest presence (season 3 trailer)

Tue, 03 Feb 2026 16:00:00 -0400

For a long time, I've been closed for maintenance.

Not because I disappeared.

Not because I didn't care.

But because life demanded more from me than I had language for.

Season 3 of Closed for Maintenance explores what happens during and after survival- when you're still standing, but learning how to dream again.

This season isn't about having a five year plan. It's about rebuilding in real time.

Moving forward without clarity.

About faith, fear, love and becoming...slowly.

If you're in an in between space in your life...

If you're figuring things out later than you expected...

If you're learning how to hope again...

You're not alone here.

New episodes coming soon.

Welcome to Season 3 of Closed for Maintenance!

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interlude: never alone

Sun, 21 Sep 2025 00:00:00 -0400

In this "interlude" between Seasons 2 and 3 of the podcast, Natasha pops in to share her heart about how God's Word helped her dismantle the enemy's lie that she was in fact not alone at a time that felt extremely lonely.

Scriptures Referenced:

Deuteronomy 31:8

“It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.”- ESV

Do not be afraid or discouraged, for the Lord will personally go ahead of you. He will be with you; he will neither fail you nor abandon you.”- NLT

Psalm 139:7-12

“Where shall I go from your Spirit?

Or where shall I flee from your presence?

If I ascend to heaven, you are there!

If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!

If I take my wings in the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.

If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night, even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you.”- ESV

“I can never escape from your Spirit!

I can never get away from your presence!

If I go up to heaven, you are there;

If I go down to the grave, you are there.

If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night- but even in darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you.”- NLT

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remain.

Sun, 13 Apr 2025 00:00:00 -0400

In the Season Two finale, Natasha shares a timely reminder for anyone feeling stretched thin between purpose and performance: the fruit God desires in your life doesn’t come from hustle...it comes from abiding.

Through scripture, personal conviction, and honest reflection, she unpacks how easy it is to drift from the Vine while doing things for God, and how critical it is to return to simply being with Him.

Rooted in John 15 and 1 Corinthians 10:31 & 33, this episode is an invitation to check your posture, reassess your platform, and make sure the main "thing" Jesus is still the main thing.

Whether you’re in ministry, media, or just trying to live this walk out faithfully, this one’s for you.

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the right pour.

Sun, 30 Mar 2025 00:00:00 -0400

What you pour in is what will eventually overflow. In this episode, Natasha shares a personal moment that sparked reflection on how the things we consume...spiritually, mentally, and emotionally, shape the way we live, respond, and grow.

Using a powerful cup analogy, she breaks down how our daily inputs (whether it’s scripture, music, podcasts, or even TikToks) affect our peace, clarity, and obedience to God. From caffeine to culture, she explores how we often mix things that were never meant to be blended...and how even a “little bit” of the wrong influence can contaminate our spiritual walk.

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you remind me.

Sun, 16 Mar 2025 00:00:00 -0400

In this episode, I reflect on a conversation with a friend that made me question if I focus too much on the “big” sins from my past—like drinking and sex before marriage—while overlooking the more subtle struggles I still wrestle with daily.

Drawing from James 4:7-8, we’ll talk about why remembering what God saved us from is essential to staying free, why no sin is small in God’s eyes, and how true spiritual growth comes from daily submission, resistance, and drawing near to Him.

If you’ve ever struggled with guilt, spiritual complacency, or the tension between your past and present walk with Christ, this episode is for you. Let’s talk about the power of remembrance and the daily fight to stay dependent on God.

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under the influence.

Sun, 02 Mar 2025 00:00:00 -0400

Influence—it’s a word we hear all the time, but what does it really mean? Many think it’s about having a big platform or a massive following, but true influence isn’t measured by numbers—it’s measured by impact. Whether we realize it or not, we’re all under the influence of something, and at the same time, we’re influencing others in ways both big and small.

In this episode, we’re diving into the weight of influence—how it shapes us, how we use it, and why it matters as followers of Christ. From the voices we listen to, to the content we consume, to the way we lead in our own homes, every decision holds power. We'll also explore how influence plays out in parenting, friendships, and everyday life, and what it means to steward it well.

So, whose influence are you under? And how are you influencing those around you? Let’s talk about it.

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coming soon: who's leading who?

Sat, 01 Mar 2025 00:00:00 -0400

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 9, "under the influence," where we unpack the true meaning of influence. It’s more than a big platform or a following—it’s about the impact we have on those around us, whether we realize it or not. Every day, we’re shaped by what we consume—social media, music, conversations, even the people we admire. But the real question is: Whose influence are we under? And in turn, how are we influencing others?

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on purpose.

Sun, 16 Feb 2025 00:00:00 -0400

After a long break, I’m back with a lesson that changed everything. In this episode, I share how I struggled with second-guessing, overthinking, and trying to control my purpose—only to realize that purpose isn’t something we pick. God assigns it.

I break down the difference between purpose and assignments, what Matthew 28:19 and Haggai 2:19 taught me, and why it’s time to step out in obedience. If you’ve been stuck in doubt or fear, this one’s for you!

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ready or not.

Wed, 31 Jul 2024 00:00:00 -0400

Welcome to Season 2 of the Closed for Maintenance podcast! In today's episode, Natasha shares an eye-opening dream she had recently. As a result of this dream, she unpacks what it means to be prepared for Jesus' return, the distractions that can keep us from being ready, and the eternal consequences of our choices. We talk out how we can accept his gift of salvation and eternal life, prioritize our faith and make sure we're ready when the time comes because “Ready or not, here He comes." This was a tough, but necessary conversation for this generation!

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coming soon: the dream.

Mon, 29 Jul 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In this teaser, get a sneak peek into the upcoming episode 7, "ready or not," where Natasha shares a recent dream she had and what God revealed to her that emphasizes the importance of staying focused on our spiritual priorities.

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truth of the matter.

Wed, 12 Jun 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In Episode 6, Natasha shares what she believes about the state of this generation. She also opens up about some of the struggles she's experiencing in her journey with Christ, how community and newfound friendships have been her lifeline and more.

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lost and found.

Tue, 21 May 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In today's episode, Natasha lays it all out about her personal struggle of balancing commitment to spirituality, how she's dealt with feeling "lost" and what's next for the Closed for Maintenance podcast.

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mmm tape #2: out of place.

Wed, 17 Apr 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In this week's "mindful maintenance moment," Natasha fills you in on where she's been, how she's felt "out of place" in life and what she decided to do about being in limbo.

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beyond the couch: AunJanai Query-Smalls

Wed, 06 Mar 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In the first ever "in between" episodes segment, Beyond the Couch...Natasha sits down with cherished & loyal CFM listener, AunJanai Query-Smalls. They unpack and explore her insight, revelations and personal takeaways from her favorite episodes.

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enough is enough.

Wed, 28 Feb 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In Episode 4, Natasha talks about the importance of defining what is enough for oneself beyond societal expectations and external influences. She shares her own experiences of feeling uncomfortable as a result of taking on the burdens and desires of others.

Natasha also discusses the freedom and empowerment that comes from being clear on one's own wants and needs and she encourages listeners to have hard conversations and advocate for themselves in order to live a more fulfilled and authentic life.

Additionally, she emphasizes the importance of mental health and eliminating unnecessary stress. Overall, this episode serves as a reminder to prioritize self-awareness, set personal boundaries, and pursue what truly brings happiness and fulfillment.

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love at first sip (ft. Ebony K. English)

Wed, 07 Feb 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In today's candid discussion Natasha sits down with sobriety influencer, 2x author, baseball mom and licensed massage therapist, Ebony K. English as they talk about their journeys to sobriety.

They talk about the difficulties they experienced, the changes they've had to make in their lives, and the support they received throughout their path to sobriety.

Ebony shared the life changing wake-up call that started her sobriety journey. They share their vulnerabilities, including the fear of accountability, the transition of friendships, their discovery of self without alcohol, and how they had to relearn to respond to life’s challenges without turning to alcohol.

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mmm tape #1: breaking balance.

Wed, 31 Jan 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In the new & in-between audio-only episodes, "mindful maintenance moments," Natasha shares a conversation about finding your own rhythm when it comes to balance in work and life. This conversation was inspired by a co-worker who struggles to navigate her weekends, be productive and show up as a mom.

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who do you think you are? (ft. Kristen Feaster)

Wed, 24 Jan 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In this episode, Natasha sits down with Lifestyle Influencer, self-love advocate and mom of two, Kristen Feaster for a conversation about the power of really knowing who you are.

During their chat, Kristen & Natasha both reveal how two once-in-a-lifetime run ins with billionaires came at a time in their lives that was least expected.

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private parts.

Wed, 10 Jan 2024 00:00:00 -0400

In the first ever episode of the Closed for Maintenance podcast, Natasha reveals the "private parts" of her most transformative year ever. She opens up about how God stripped her of everything she knew, the challenges of being almost homeless again, and how she has embraced a new identity after over 10 years of making business her one and only.

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Welcome to the Closed for Maintenance Podcast

Sun, 07 Jan 2024 00:00:00 -0400

Step into a world where the daily grind takes a backseat, and your well-being becomes the main attraction. In the Closed for Maintenance podcast, Lifestyle Entrepreneur & bestselling author, Natasha Weston invites you to explore life beyond business.

In a fast-paced world that too often prioritizes productivity and hustle, CFM provides a tranquil pause, a moment of self-reflection. Join Natasha as she engages in heartfelt conversations with experts, thought leaders, and individuals who've experienced the transformative journey of prioritizing their mental health and well-being.

Closed for Maintenance is your haven for discussions on mindfulness, self-care, emotional resilience, and the pursuit of a life that truly nourishes your soul. From practical tips to profound insight, each episode offers a blueprint for living a balanced, purpose-driven life.

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