We wander together through reflection on what this experience was to us, who we were to each other, and what our early experiment findings have been. 

Thank you, listeners, for being a part of our process in this alchemical season!

What’s to come from this temporal collective of artists in the near and far future? Will there be another season of lab partners? Will the colLaboratory run its experiment again with new scientists? We’re excited to find out with you. 

If you loved Lab Partners, we’d love to know. Leave a rating and review, drop a comment, tag us on IG, or send an email to kelseyrosetort@gmail.com to be shared with the group. 

Find out more about ColLaboratory and each of the 8 Lab Partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labparters. There you’ll find our astrology, designs, little bits of bios, and information about how to be in connection with each of us through our work.

Topics explored include:

• Feeling “close to death” and the clarity, emptiness, or non-narrative states that accompany those seasons
• Aging, mortality, and the wisdom available when we stop resisting the inevitability of death
• Suicidality and the cultural and pathological perspectives that shape how we relate to death
• Ancestral contact and thinning veils in emotional, spiritual, and philosophical proximity to death
• The relationship between death, desire, and impermanence, and the generative potential of letting go
• Non-physical experiences of death: ego deaths, initiations, psychedelic states, chosen pain, kink, and microdosed endings
• Astrological and Human Design references to difference in calibrating to death and dying: the water signs, fear motivation, the undefined spleen

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Maru is a 6/2 Sacral Generator, Leo Rising with Sun in Cancer and Moon in Virgo
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Here is some of what they touch upon together:

• The solar plexus as a bridge between spirit and form: reconnecting body, spirit, and resource
• Trusting the absence of creative flow and resource flow as sacred guidance, too.
• The relationship between money and community
• The contradiction of being abundantly resourced while simultaneously experiencing poverty
• A tender moment in early relationship around value, worth, and exchange
• Differentiated abundance: complexifying value and exchange
• The Queen of Pentacles embodied and as a guide 
• Reciprocity beyond transaction
• Nourishment as the core question: what feeds each person? what feeds the relationship? how can exchange be mutually nourishing?

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator, Taurus Rising with Sun in Aquarius and Moon in Pisces
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor, Leo Rising with Sun in Taurus and Moon in Pisces

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Some of the threads woven together throughout include:

• Belonging beyond homogenization: differentiation as the basis for connection and community
• Queering the binary of belonging or not
• Spirit as it lives in the individual vs. as understood by the tribe and collective
• Deconstructing leadership, flattening hierarchy, and releasing expectation around role and contribution
• Getting what you wanted and still feeling unmet as a doorway to liberation
• World-building, cross-pollination, and gridwork through intimate conversation

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Eréndira, Kelsey, Steph, and Quinn discuss:

• The tension between not wanting to pressure others, resistance to impact, and the burden of managing others’ responses to our initiations 
• Energetic hygiene and the slippery slope from initiation to response
• The cancerous nature of obligation based communications and manifestor “ghosting” as a stop to it’s growth
• The mechanics of non-sacral bodies & sacral amplification: how manifestors can take in too much sacral energy and burn out, but also how this over-capacity is part of the initiatory mechanic itself.
• Closed-aura protection + psychological conditioning: The paradox of being energetically protected yet psychologically over-conditioned; the “slow-drip barrage” of response demands on a closed aura.
• Manifestation as initiation; the body leading, not the mind; being “at the mercy” of timing and urges.
• The importance of not taking our cyclical absence as manifestors personally 
• Differentiated “urges” - how the process of feeling and acting on urge/initiation differs in every single individual manifestor 
• Surrender to form & cosmic timing: Trusting the body’s timing, surrendering the mind’s expectations, and the spiritual dimension of manifestor initiation.

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor 
• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Your Victimhood Psychopomp hosts discuss:

• The distinction between victim-y feelings and victim consciousness
• The relationship between early childhood trauma and ones tethers to victimhood
• The shift from “why did this happen?” to “what is here?”
• Feelings of victimhood as normal, transient states
• Awareness as psychopomp: traveling between realms inside and outside of victimhood
• Using human design as a tool for understanding our differentiated experiences in victimhood: intersections between undefined centers, emotional waves, signatures themes, and rave psychology
• Finding softness in the inevitable experience of victimhood 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Enjoy this generous access to two friends digging into some potent exploration of:

• The quantum effect of observation: exploring how recording a conversation shifts the field and the desire to blur the line between relaxed intimacy and public sharing
• The value of sharing from and witnessing in the emotional low, the mess, the weeds, the not knowing 
• How caveats can function as pre-emptive defenses against being misunderstood, dismissed, or corrected 
• The spiral staircase of emotional processing - Is it possible to forget the ground we’ve covered?
• Challenging anti-venting narratives: Venting as connection and release 
• Possibilities in what we can offer and what we can receive in inviting each other into our emotional processes and stories 
• The false binary of emotions verses consciousness

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator 
• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

Tune into Amalia's show "One Foot on the Roof" at amaliaarts.com/talk-show

💖 New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Nic, Kelsey, and Amalia take advantage of the trust established amongst them to observe and digest their experiences of Shame when it comes to prioritizing their joy, creativity, peace, and satisfaction, even as the World Burns.

This is a raw and powerful conversation offering listeners an opportunity to challenge the black and white narratives that keep them in a disempowered freeze state and to calibrate to new conceptualizations that carry potential for real transformation. 

They discuss:

• Shame, Fear & Safety: how shame arises, how fear underlies it, and what conditions and capacities allow it to be metabolized rather than suppressed.
• Reflections on proximity to harm and the shame of being privileged while others suffer
• Creative Integrity in Crisis: staying connected to joy, art, and personal well being “while the world is burning.”
• The contrast between genuine embodied care and the social-media / shame based pressure to perform grief, outrage, or political awareness.
• Attunement vs. Shoulds: distinguishing inner guidance from the mental “should” voices that dictate what one ought to feel or do in the face of violence and oppression 
• Self-attuned Creative Living as a political and spiritual act.
• The fear of being exiled and the role of self rejection in the current State of things

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Nic is a 4/6 Sacral Generator with Probability View
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Power View
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator with Personal View

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Together, they relax into layered feelings about:

• Moments of contraction, anger, and scarcity in their processes with initiation & resource
• The difference between selling beginnings versus selling completion or consumption
• The “self-responsibility binary” and the trap of emphasizing internal alchemy over expression of whats present 
• Capitalism’s incompatibility with differentiation in general and specifically with the manifestor’s rhythm
• The collective need for new economic imaginations
• The possibility of re-valuing wisdom, rest, and presence as currencies
• How creative experiments like colLaboratory model alternative structures of exchange 

And more. 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Power View
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Personal View
• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor with Possibility View

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

 Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

• The solar plexus as both energy and awareness: how feelings transform through embodiment and time
• What defines a “breakthrough” moment, and how story-making, timing, and inner authority may shape that process
• Dehomogenizing the “feel your feelings” orientation
• Identifying where emotions live in and move through the body as they arrive and integrate
• What is grief? Where does it live in the body? 
• Relational Safety and Emotional Maturity: how we can feel whether someone has done their own alchemy, and how that sensing informs whether it’s safe to bring all of our parts to our relationship with them

And lots more. 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator with the Moon in Pisces
• Noah is a 1/4 Splenic Projector with the Moon in Taurus
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with the Moon in Sagittarius

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

Quinn, Amalia, and Nic share with each other and with listeners their experiences and reflections around:

• Shame and failure in the process of bumping into life before finding resilience or detachment “on the roof.”
• The evolving relationship to community, friendship, and environment: finding spaces and people that allow one’s full expression to exist without defense.
• Parentification in early role modeling 
• Balancing participation and observation: needing distance within connection, cultivating internal space while remaining relational.
• Role models - what are they? Do we have them? 
• Conditioning as a good thing - mutual exchange and relational influence 

And a lot more. 

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Quinn is a 4/6 Emotional Manifestor with Saturn in Aquarius 
• Amalia is a 4/6 Emotional Generator with Saturn in Aquarius
• Nic is a 4/6 Sacral Generator With Saturn in Scorpio 

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

• How the 8-week circle serves as a communal space for reflection and creativity
• Shifting experiences & expressions of liberation and activism from something more “combustible” to something more intimate, poetic, and lived in the everyday
• Exploring stories, myth weaving, and community wounds
• The power of gathering honestly, without agenda, to discover transformation through mutual presence
• Launching as a practice of liberation itself

You can find details and registration for Tending the Revolt: Caregiving, Poetics, and Liberation in the Everyday at eje.myflodesk.com/tendingtherevolt

🧪This episode’s Lab Partners:

• Eréndira Jiménez is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with 1 kiddo, aged 1.5
• Nic Strack is a 4/6 Sacral Generator with two kiddos, aged 2 and (almost) 9

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

“HOW TO JUST DO WHATEVER YOU WANT“

“HOW TO BE RESOURCED TO JUST BE YOU”

and

“WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE FINANCIALLY FREE?”

Maru, Eréndira, and Kelsey offer stories, examples, and perspectives clarified in their years of deprogramming orientations to resource, success, security, and certainty.

They discuss:

• Letting go of metrics of success that were never theirs
• Trajectory shifts from more “safe” and traditional career paths to the trust falls of their work lives now 
• The distinction between being intellectually committed to divesting from the stories of capitalism and colonialism verses the actual embodied movement towards that divestment
• Trusting their bodies rather than homogenized stories to guide them to resourcedness
• The romanticization verses the real life experience and sacrifices of “geting free”

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Maru is a 6/2 Sacral Generator on the Cross of Prevention
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor on the Cross of Uncertainty
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor on the Cross of Upheaval

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

They discuss:

• The effect of self-withholding on connective creative flow
• Accessing neutrality when it comes to our experiences of wounding and mistrust
• Their histories and identities in parenting
• Where parenting and awareness experimentation intersect

and of course, much more. 

You get to witness their organic arrival to an idea for working together. (You heard it here first!)

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor with two kiddos, aged 6 and 7
• Nic is a 4/6 Sacral Generator with two kiddos, aged 2 and (almost) 9

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

• the differentiated experience of empathy
• the distinction between intellectual and somatic assimilation of Human Design 
• learning to let ideas breathe and embracing creative mania, sometimes 
• disrupting the capitalist pipeline by leaning into the creative process 
• how their bodies (with sacral & emotional authorities) navigate the field of ideation 

…and more.

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Nic is a 4/6 Sacral Generator with Desire Motivation
• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor with Innocence Motivation

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

They reflect on:

• The intersections between the emotional and the creative processes
• Being surprised by what’s growing inside
• The transmuting of self rejection 
• The emotional manifestor experience 
• The power and the price of authenticity 

…and much more.

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners:

• Kelsey is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor
• Steph is a 2/4 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo

• Safety & trust in collaboration
• What it feels like to be witnessed mid-creative process
• The impact of colonialism on the body's experience of being seen
• Stretching one’s capacity for being perceived
• Hopes for how this podcast might support listeners

…and much more.

🧪 This episode's Lab Partners :

• Noah is a 1/4 Splenic Projector
• Eréndira is a 5/2 Emotional Manifestor

You can find more about them and their other lab partners at kelseyrosetort.com/labpartners, including bodygraphs, natal charts, and ways to connect with their work.

💖 Stay tuned: New episodes of LAB PARTNERS are released weekly-ish, usually on the Moon’s day.

Intro & Music by Noah Souder-Russo