Thaw

8. Grief and money. Also a story about a creepy cross and writing secret notes to God.

Tue, 07 Jul 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Why does the word “grief”suck so much? What happens when you’re grieving something no one else can see? Why is our culture terrible with grief? How do we grieve what our child parts can’t? Is grief just a form of love? How do early templates contribute to feeling undeserving later? Can we grieve for our exiled parts?

Spiritual trauma makes money, being autonomous and having a professional trajectory HARD. Also, Narcissistic abuse recovery, IFS and some of the many Sanskrit words for love.

The Little Book of Love - Elyse Poppers

It’s OK That You’re Not OK - Megan Devine

He's Gone - Grateful Dead (music by Jerry Garcia, lyrics by Robert Hunter)

The content of this podcast is for educational and informational purposes only! We discuss mental health, wellness, and personal growth but I am not a licensed therapist, counselor, or mental health professional. This show is not a substitute for professional therapy, diagnosis, or treatment. If you're experiencing trauma, distress, or mental health crisis, please reach out to a licensed professional or a local crisis hotline. Thanks for listening and take care of yourself.

6. Parts Work: Internal Family Systems and Big Mind. Also, early MTV rules.

Wed, 24 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I talk about IFS and Big Mind and how all of your parts have a function- and if behavior doesn't align with intention, most likely we just don't know that part very well and it's operating in the big unconscious area of ourselves. Also, sing along with Pat Benatar.

5. Compulsive gambling, deception, betrayal, spiritual trauma: In other words...my childhood!

Sun, 21 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

In this episode, I share some of my origin story. I have artifacts that verify my reality which is really helpful in verifying a reality I felt but didn't have acnowledged. Also, complex trauma and intersections.

Check out the mentioned presentation by Kimberle Crenshaw here.

The podcast about ACOA is here.

4. How AI recreates narcissistic abuse trauma. Plus, alcohol is yummy, recovering from a discard is hard.

Sat, 20 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

This episode is a car talk driving to Milwaukee. After meandering thoughts on the frustration of trying to shake off funky moods and cutting down on delicious alcoholic drinks, I dive into the ways AI can be super duper dangerous to people recovering from narcissistic abuse. If you're using AI as a therapy tool, what should you be cautious about?

The content of this podcast is for educational and informational purposes only. While we discuss mental health, wellness, and personal growth, I am not a licensed therapist, counselor, or mental health professional, and this show is not a substitute for professional therapy, diagnosis, or treatment.

If you are experiencing trauma, distress, or a mental health crisis, please reach out to a licensed professional or a local crisis hotline. By listening to this episode, you acknowledge that we do not have a therapist-client relationship. Thank you for listening, and take care of yourself.

3. Ambiguous grief from narcissistic discard. Plus, your nervous system is an ancient, your body is a creature: the basics of somatic therapy.

Tue, 09 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

This episode runs through my first session with a grief tender and what happens when ambiguous grief like a narcissistic discard has no place to land. Also, I covers the basics of somatic therapy.

2. Why you're bad with money. It's not what you think. Plus four things to get started on developing your autonomous self.

Sun, 07 Jun 2026 09:00:00 -0500

Intersections of money issues, spiritual control and CPTSD are complex. Topics in the episode include why therapy might be failing you, the limitations of somatic therapy, why mapping the bigger picture is important, now Internal Family Systems can help and four things I recommend to get started on developing your autonomous self.

Thaw.

Mon, 18 May 2026 01:30:00 -0500

As L.L. Cool J once said: Dreams don't have deadlines. But due to things like ADHD and CPTSD, the dream is remembering what my dream is, stressing that my dream is tangled up in generational trauma, inching toward that (maybe mine, mine not) dream only to battle things like nervous system freeze, social anxiety, migraines, and self-sabotage. What was my dream again?

You with me? For people like you and me, the dream is finding a sense of relaxation in our bodies and relational stability in the world. So we can, you know, know what we want and then actually step toward it.

Things like neurodivergence, betrayal, narcissistic parents, being around addiction, attachment stress, sensory processing disorder, medication sensitivity, living under the poverty line, emotional strain, autoimmune disease...these things are a lot on their own, but taken together many of the very useful tools offered in traditional models of health and wellness fall short.

If you're not sure where to start, neither am I. Start with episode 1 like I did.

Eras take time. Doesn't matter how long you've been frozen. You getting curious cracks the ice. Let's thaw this ice age together.