A new city.

A new job.

A new relationship.

A new beginning.

If the wounds inside remain unhealed, the cycle continues.

In Part 2 of my conversation with Brandon McNaughton, we follow the next chapter of his incredible journey through military rejection, addiction, overdose, rehabilitation, toxic relationships, plant medicine, fatherhood, and ultimately discovering lasting freedom through Jesus Christ.

Brandon shares how every attempt to reinvent himself through bodybuilding, dangerous careers, relationships, and success only led him back to the same unresolved childhood wounds. It wasn't until he confronted his trauma, embraced recovery, became a father, and surrendered his life to God that everything began to change.

Together, we explore addiction recovery, men's mental health, childhood trauma, forgiveness, fatherhood, ibogaine, Bufo, healing, faith, the 12 Steps, and why true freedom comes from accepting God's grace instead of trying to earn your worth.

This isn't just a story about overcoming addiction.

It's about discovering who you were created to be.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you've ever felt trapped in destructive cycles, struggled to forgive yourself, questioned your purpose, or wondered if lasting healing is possible, I hope this conversation reminds you that redemption is available to every one of us.

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Brad

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A broken home.

Feeling abandoned.

Being bullied.

Searching for love in all the wrong places.

Long before addiction begins, there's usually a story that no one sees.

In Part 1 of my conversation with Brandon McNaughton, we go back to where it all started. Brandon shares the painful childhood experiences that shaped his identity, including his parents' divorce, feeling abandoned by his mother, moving in with his emotionally unavailable father, being hospitalized after threatening suicide in sixth grade, relentless bullying, and the search for acceptance through drugs, sex, violence, and belonging.

Together, we explore childhood trauma, abandonment wounds, bullying, addiction, emotional pain, broken families, self-worth, father wounds, mental health, and how unresolved childhood experiences can influence every decision we make as adults.

This isn't just a conversation about addiction.

It's about understanding where the pain began.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you've ever struggled with abandonment, questioned your worth, carried childhood wounds into adulthood, or found yourself looking for validation in unhealthy places, I hope this conversation reminds you that healing begins when we're willing to face our story.

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Brad

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In Part 2 of my conversation with Dan ("Dillo"), we pick up where his incredible story left off. After surviving addiction, prison, and the fight for sobriety, Dan shares what happened next, and why some of his hardest battles began after he got clean.

From rebuilding his life one day at a time to surviving multiple strokes, living with disability, navigating the heartbreak of estranged children, and learning to trust God through ongoing suffering, this conversation is a raw look at what recovery really looks like.

Together, we explore men's mental health, addiction recovery, self-forgiveness, faith in Jesus, brotherhood, baptism, purpose, and why God's grace is greater than the mistakes we continue to hold against ourselves.

This conversation isn't about having all the answers.

It's about learning to keep showing up.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you've ever struggled to forgive yourself, felt like your past still defines you, questioned your purpose after suffering, or wondered whether God could still use your story, I hope this conversation reminds you that redemption isn't just possible. It's already being written.

If you haven't listened to Part 1 yet, I encourage you to start there to hear Dan's remarkable journey through addiction, overdose, prison, and the beginning of his recovery.

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Brad

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The addiction. The broken relationships. The shame. The mistakes you can't undo.

And then life keeps testing you.

In this deeply emotional conversation, I sit down with my close friend Dan Cardillo to talk about addiction, recovery, fatherhood, forgiveness, faith, identity, and the daily battle to believe you're still worthy of love.

Dan shares his incredible journey from chasing his dream of professional baseball to bodybuilding, prescription drug addiction, life on tour with the Dropkick Murphys, losing his marriage and children, surviving an overdose, serving time in prison, suffering multiple strokes, and fighting suicidal thoughts.

But beneath every chapter of pain is a man who refuses to give up.

This conversation explores addiction recovery, men's mental health, childhood identity, shame, forgiveness, prison, sobriety, fatherhood, grief, faith in Jesus, healing after trauma, purpose, and learning to accept God's grace when you still struggle to forgive yourself.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you've ever battled addiction, carried regret, questioned your worth, or wondered if redemption is still possible, I hope this conversation reminds you that your past does not have to define your future.

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Brad

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The belief that we're not enough.

The pressure to prove ourselves.

The fear of failing the people we love most.

And sometimes, it takes loss, fatherhood, grief, and life's hardest seasons to finally uncover what has been driving us all along.

In this deeply honest conversation, I sit down with my close friend TJ Fry to talk about identity, masculinity, fatherhood, addiction, grief, family expectations, self-worth, faith, and the lifelong pursuit of peace.

TJ shares his incredible journey from professional skiing, race cars, and adrenaline-fueled pursuits to becoming a husband, father, coach, and man learning to navigate loss after the passing of his father. We explore how childhood experiences shape our beliefs, why so many men struggle with feeling enough, the burden of expectations, marriage during difficult seasons, and what it means to lead a family while carrying your own pain.

This is a conversation about grief.

About vulnerability.

About healing.

If you've ever felt like you're carrying the weight of the world, struggling to live up to expectations, battling addiction, questioning your worth, or trying to become the father, husband, or man you were called to be, this episode will remind you that you're not alone.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

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The business.

The money.

The success.

The identity you've spent years building.

And suddenly you're faced with a question most people spend their entire lives avoiding:

What if the things you've been chasing were never meant to satisfy you?

In this powerful conversation, I sit down with entrepreneur and founder of Western Welder, Jordan Beeman, to talk about success, failure, faith, anxiety, identity, marriage, fatherhood, and learning how to surrender control.

Jordan shares his incredible journey from losing everything during the 2008 financial crisis, backpacking through Hawaii, serving in India, working in the oil fields, falling in love with his wife despite a language barrier, building a company that generated over $20 million in revenue, and ultimately facing one of the hardest seasons of his life.

As business pressures mounted, anxiety, fear, stress, and even suicidal thoughts began to surface, forcing Jordan to confront a painful reality: success was never going to heal what was broken inside.

This conversation explores entrepreneurship, faith, men's mental health, marriage, family, business growth, burnout, identity, surrender, purpose, and what it means to trust God when everything feels uncertain.

This is not just a story about business.

It's a story about letting go.

If you've ever felt trapped by success, overwhelmed by responsibility, afraid of failure, or exhausted from trying to control every outcome, I hope this conversation reminds you that peace isn't found in achievement. It's found in surrender.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

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Brad

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From childhood trauma and addiction to prison, redemption, faith, and rebuilding a life from the ground up, Steven Reel's story is one of the most remarkable transformations you'll hear.

In this deeply vulnerable conversation, Steven shares how a childhood marked by abuse, neglect, sexual trauma, and addiction led him down a path of alcohol, methamphetamine, crime, and eventually prison. By the age of 19, he was facing decades behind bars and believed his life was headed in one direction.

But prison became the place where everything began to change.

Steven opens up about the mentor who challenged him to become more than his past, the moment he encountered faith, and the difficult process of confronting trauma, learning forgiveness, and rebuilding his identity.

Today, after a successful career as a helicopter pilot, real estate investor, and entrepreneur, Steven finds himself in a different season. One focused not on success, money, or achievement, but on purpose, healing, and discovering what God is calling him toward next.

This episode is about redemption, accountability, forgiveness, and the truth that your past does not have to define your future.

If you've ever felt trapped by your mistakes, struggled with addiction, battled shame, or wondered if transformation is really possible, this conversation will leave you inspired.

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Brad

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The plans fall apart.

The doors close.

The journey gets delayed.

And you're left wondering if God has forgotten about you.

But what if the waiting is where the real transformation happens?

In this deeply personal episode, I share how a van accident in Montana unexpectedly became the beginning of a completely new chapter. What started as a delay turned into a season of surrender, healing, faith, community, discipleship, and discovering my purpose through Jesus Christ.

From living on a farm with a young family, finding a community of faithful men, giving my life to Christ, getting baptized, selling my home in Los Angeles, launching men's groups, and receiving a vision for this podcast, this episode is about what happens when you stop chasing control and start trusting God's plan.

This is not just a story about finding faith.

It's a story about finding purpose.

This conversation explores Christianity, men's mental health, healing after trauma, surrender, discipleship, purpose, community, spiritual growth, baptism, personal transformation, healing through Christ, identity, calling, and learning to trust God in uncertain seasons.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you've ever felt stuck, lost, delayed, uncertain about your future, or questioned whether God was working behind the scenes, I hope this conversation reminds you that sometimes the greatest breakthroughs happen in the waiting.

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Brad

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After my divorce, I hit the darkest season of my life. On the outside, I was still training celebrity clients, traveling privately, and living what looked like a dream life. Inside, I was drowning in trauma, heartbreak, anxiety, shame, and emotional pain I had spent my whole life avoiding.

In this deeply vulnerable episode, I share the beginning of my healing journey through breathwork, meditation, plant medicine, spirituality, emotional healing, and eventually finding God.

From mushrooms and ayahuasca ceremonies to facing childhood wounds, surrender, identity loss, trauma responses, and the search for purpose, this episode explores what happens when you stop running from pain and finally face yourself.

This is not about escaping reality.

This is about learning how to heal.

This conversation explores men’s mental health, emotional healing, trauma recovery, spirituality, plant medicine, ayahuasca, self-worth, surrender, addiction to achievement, nervous system healing, purpose, and learning how to love yourself again.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you’ve ever felt lost, emotionally exhausted, spiritually disconnected, or desperate to heal the parts of yourself you’ve spent years hiding, I hope this episode helps you feel seen and less alone.

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Brad

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The success.

The money.

The marriage.

The career.

The identity.

And suddenly, you’re left alone with the pain you spent your whole life trying to outrun.

In this deeply emotional episode, I share the season that completely broke me. From losing my marriage at the peak of my bodybuilding and professional career to battling suicidal thoughts, identity loss, emotional collapse, binge eating, shame, burnout, and loneliness, this was the chapter where everything fell apart.

On the outside, I was training Mike Tyson, building massive business opportunities, and living what looked like a dream life.

Inside, I was drowning.

This conversation explores divorce, men’s mental health, emotional trauma, suicidal ideation, workaholism, burnout, bodybuilding identity, shame, abandonment wounds, healing, and what happens when God strips away every false version of yourself.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you’ve ever lost yourself in achievement, struggled with depression, questioned your worth, or felt like your whole world was collapsing, I hope this episode reminds you that rock bottom is not the end of your story.

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Brad

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The athlete.

The achiever.

The strong one.

The successful one.

But underneath all the success, validation, money, bodybuilding, and accomplishment… I was still carrying the same fear, insecurity, anger, and emptiness from childhood.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the armor I built to protect myself. From high school sports and social anxiety to bodybuilding, fitness modeling, celebrity training, workaholism, and chasing success in Los Angeles, I spent years believing achievement would finally make me feel enough.

On the outside, it looked like I had everything together.

Inside, I still hated myself.

This conversation explores trauma, men’s mental health, emotional suppression, perfectionism, identity, validation, bodybuilding culture, relationships, and the hidden pain many high achievers silently carry.

If you’ve ever tied your worth to success, struggled to slow down, or felt empty despite accomplishing everything you thought would make you happy, this episode will help you feel understood and less alone.

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Thanks,

Brad

I talked about:

00:00 The armor I built

02:17 Looking successful but feeling lost

04:59 Alcohol, insecurity, and escape

09:17 Football and proving myself

18:04 Walking away from football

23:17 How bodybuilding began

31:51 Moving to California

36:12 Marriage and emotional unavailability

42:00 Success, celebrity clients, and emptiness

48:20 Having everything but still unhappy

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“I had a good childhood.”

“It wasn’t that bad.”

“Others had it worse.”

But what happens when you finally face the truth?

In this deeply vulnerable episode, we unpack the hidden layers of childhood trauma, abandonment, perfectionism, and emotional pain that often go unnoticed but shape who we become.

This is not just a story.

This is a safe space.

If you’ve ever struggled with feeling not enough, chasing validation, or carrying pain you couldn’t explain, this conversation will help you feel seen, understood, and less alone.

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Thanks,

Brad

I talked about:

00:00 – “My childhood wasn’t that bad…”

00:17 – Therapy breakthrough that changed everything

00:56 – Growing up with abandonment and emotional absence

02:10 – Where perfectionism and pressure began

05:08 – Walking away from something you loved to cope

08:43 – A mother’s love, survival mode, and emotional gaps

11:32 – “Love has to be earned” belief formed

15:55 – Coping through control, disordered eating begins

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2020 was my rock bottom. What came after was a spiritual healing journey — rebuilding, growing, becoming a different man. But I still carried an emptiness I couldn't name.

I had a nudge. A pull. Like I was searching for something deeper. Searching for God in a way I hadn't yet.

So I left my life behind.

On that journey, God stopped me in my tracks — with a cow. That's how I ended up in Montana. I listened. I stayed. And I surrendered my life to Christ.

From there, I went to Costa Rica. And it was on those beaches that God spoke to me and gave me the vision.

The podcast. The ministry. The men I'm called to serve. All of it.

Front Rowe wasn't a business plan. It was a download from God.

This is Episode 1 — where the vision came from.

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